I had two conversations with friends of mine tonight. Both struggling, is all this sacrifice worth it? What if I never get there?
What is there?
We hold on to our pasts, because we are terrified of the present. We panic in the present, as we think it will help in controlling our future. At the end of the day it’s still your past….and crap…no matter how hard you try…you have no control over the future.
It’s terrifying I know….
All we can do is relax in the now. Be grateful. Strive to be the best people we can be. Take risks. Make change. All in all have faith in ourselves.
Easier said then done I know…
Today marks the day one year ago I got on a plane and left everyone I loved in New York to start a life in a LA…. Alone….. With nothing waiting for me there. Honestly I look back and I think what hell was I thinking???
But here I sit with my self in my own West Hollywood apartment, fully furnished, (finally bought a dining room table) pretty excited about that, and couldn’t feel stronger.
Have I figured it out? Absolutely not. But what I do know about myself is I’m not afraid of taking huge risks in my life, and diving into the unknown.
That I know how live alone. Be alone.
That my life is not at all where I thought it would be at this point. Buts that’s ok. It doesn’t have to be.
Trust me you’ll get there…wherever “there” is. We’re all on our way.
And 5 years from now if someone asks you was it worth it? My guess is you’ll say was what worth it?
Because life takes us exactly where we are supposed to be….have faith.